psychophant | private conversations with cumore

...I know.

[And for once there's no sense of ego behind it; it's just a statement. He knows.]

I'm still...working through some things myself. [Everyone was going to love me- ] This entire situation is rather good at making you aware of problems you didn't realize you had. It isn't... That isn't your fault, and it isn't as though you should have done anything differently.

There are things I wish I could have done differently. [That entire trial, primarily, but not because of how embarrassing that was. He couldn't give less of a fuck about that, he feels completely justified in being an embarrassing shitshow after losing Dist. It's entirely because he should have been able to see a way to properly pin it on Ango, he just missed it entirely due to how worked up he was.] But I agree that it wasn't my fault. I did everything I could with what I had in that state, and I still came closer to solving it than most of the others.

[Not like he really expected better from most of them but at the same time...]

Thank you, though. You're certainly right about that; I never would have guessed I had this many issues lying just beneath the surface. It's rather frustrating.

[To put it mildly...]

[That gets a soft noise out of him, really.]

My life was actually decent before this. If I had problems like this, at the very least I didn't have to think about them.

The most I had to worry about was that coup I was in the middle of stopping.

[...]

Technically, it wasn't actually a coup. They hadn't done anything yet. I was just going to ensure they wouldn't be a problem in the future.

[HE TOOK FIVE THOUSAND MEN TO MURDER LEO AND XANDER'S TINY FORCES BECAUSE THERE'S NO KILL LIKE OVERKILL]

...Well, I don't see why one wouldn't if they have the opportunity.

[cumore.]

Precisely. It wasn't like Garon was in any state to realize, anyway.

[nice people saying wonderful things............]

[oh my god. it gets him to laugh a bit, anyway.]

Well, unfortunately I'm going to have to at least pretend to be an acceptable person whenever we return. At least for a while. It's a bit boring, all things considered.

Oh, I can imagine. But you'll have Teru Mikami to entertain you, at the very least.

[oh my god i just realized if all four of them go back it'll be a proper party!! holy shit.]

[A PROPER PARTY OF WHAT

SHITTY MIDBOSSES AND TERU MIKAMI?]

Please. He's already told me that he fully intends to still have morals and get in my way all the time.

[YES

PLEASE IMAGINE THESE FOUR IDIOTS ON CUMORE'S PILGRIMAGE, COULD ANYTHING BE WORSE???]

Dreadful. I don't know how you'll stand each other.

[you liiiiiiiiiike him]

It's not as though I didn't already know that he would be like that when I asked him.

[no.]

Maybe he'll actually get some sort of experience out of it, so that when someone asks him what he likes he comes up with something slightly better than lemons.

One can hope.

[lemons..............]

Thank you, Cumore. Both for the offer and for... [gestures vaguely] calming me down, I suppose.

[weird how cumore is really good at that.]

People always seem so surprised when I manage things like that. You're all just fortunate that I like you.

[He thinks it's amusing, at least.]

Of course. I'm very lucky that I'm your second favorite.

You're absolutely finishing your own hair tonight.

How cruel... I hope you treat Teru Mikami better than this.

I don't offer to do his hair. Although I think that's another thing that I think would probably make him do something highly entertaining with his face.